8/ Let’s focus on Bill Callahan for this comment. He hated the jerk for having an affair with Cindy Dall. Bill Callahan referred to the jerk on EVERY SINGLE RECORD since Doctor Came At Dawn, not just in lyrics but often in titles and cover art. Drag City did nothing about it. They either didn’t know or didn’t care. My friend said there was some beef between the jerk and Bill Callahan after briefly meeting them both in 1997-98 so the Drag City bosses must have known there was an issue there. Now I’m pretty sure Bill Callahan’s weird NSA spy parents taught him some cryptography. Then he started using it in songs. They were language analysts and language analysts do cryptography and decryption. Bill Callahan has a weird gap in his CV from after high school until he started music and couldn’t sin or play guitar or anything. Either he was a total slacker or he had another career path that didn’t pan out. I think he tried to get into intelligence but didn’t pass the psychological tests. Then he went into music on the rebound from his chosen career. I can elaborate more about his family but I can’t be bothered typing it. I think the cryptography started with Red Apple Falls. After I started getting good at reading these lyrics I could read the Shakespeare Sonnets much better, and Helen Vendler says they have cryptography in them. I must be naturally good at cryptography.
Hi Stephin Merrit, so now I have worked out that Sonic Youth were involved in the fighting in 2005 and on Joanna Newsom’s side and agreed to ruin my life. I worked this out because Kim Gordon is constantly a total bitch to me since 2015-16 ish. The latest is she kept telling me on her Instagram that I should do what she wants, which is some cover story to keep her and Sofia Coppola out of this. Any way then she tried going over my head and pressuring Jim O Rourke to make me do what she wants. Then Bill Nace got a lot of angry emails from me and I worked out Sonic Youth agreed to ruin my life in 2005. They could have been involved as Jim O Rourke was in the band then, or as Steve Shelley was close to Chan Marshall, or because they were all friends with Stephen Malkmus etc. Thurston Moore already told me why they agreed to ruin my life, I just didn’t realise he was talking about 2005. He said it was because you should believe women and Joanna Newsom was a woman. Then Jim O Rourke left Sonic Youth in late 2005. Then everyone knew they’d made me psychotic. Then Thurston Moore started cheating on Kim Gordon as ruining my life dampened the marriage. Then the marriage ended, the band ended. Kim Gordon blamed Thurston Moore and his partner in the media, and Thurston Moore couldn’t defend himself or his partner without exposing the secret about ruining my life. Then in 2015-16 she did Glitterbust complaining I wasn’t awestruck and didn’t say “wow you’re all famous I don’t mind you ruined my life”. And then I got lured into this again in 2022 and she keeps being a total bitch and trying to get special treatment for her and Sofia Coppola. So now I am on Billy Corgan and Courtney Love’s side of the debate about whether Kim Gordon is mean. Yes she’s really mean and she’s just like Harvey Weinstein but without the sleaze. She thinks she can ruin my life because she’s famous and powerful and tries to use her industry power to get other people to ruin my life or make me do what she wants. Also the bad thing is there’s another dead. Gregg Foreman. It looks like a suicide and he’s linked to Chan Marshall and was touring with her when she went mental in February and March and was blackmailing people and doing death threats and other stuff. He wasn’t on my radar so I hadn’t contacted him, and I’m not sure what he thought was going on. I don’t know how many other people there are who I haven’t realised were involved. He wouldn’t have been in the group I’m sending to prison and I don’t think he had enough money for me to bother getting damages from him. But I don’t know if he knew that. He looks like he was a nice person as there’s a lot of people on social media saying what a good friend he was etc. So it’s pretty shit at the moment all around.
21/ The jerk was forced to agree to lure me in again after David Berman killed himself. Either by Drag City or Bill Callahan, I’m not sure which. He didn’t want to and neither did his evil wife, and they postponed it. That’s why it didn’t happen that soon after David Berman killed himself. Then the jerk must have been told to lure me in and pretend to love me and give me selective bits of information, and try to force me to go along with their cover story. I guess he could have said no, but if anyone else helped me he could go to prison. I guess David Berman killing himself must have been a big deal to get people to force him to communicate with me. He is not nice to me half the time.
20/ Bill Callahan in 2005 blackmails people into being in a conspiracy to ruin my life, and now after 20 years of that, he wants me to join the conspiracy, so all the people like you in the conspiracy don’t have to feel bad anymore about ruining my life. But I’m like, nope, never going to happen. In October 2016 when the main ones decided to destroy my life forever, they didn’t care. But after David Berman killed himself they suddenly realised they have this problem with over 170 famous people being in a conspiracy and some of them feel bad about ruining my life. So they decide to try and get me to join the conspiracy so these people don’t have to feel guilty anymore. Gee nope. Then I spent the time getting all the info and telling you guys. The people not being pleased about ruining my life must be pretty bad for them as they have let me get all the info.
19/ And I forgot Hanly Banks also wants to ruin my life as she doesn’t like the idea of not having a lot of money when Bill Callahan is in prison and I get his records withdrawn from sale. So the jerks evil wife wants to ruin my life, Bill Callahan’s wife wants to ruin my life, and Nick Cave’s wife wants to ruin my life. Stephen Malkmus wife changed her mind about wanting to ruin my life and made him give up. Although now I have to wait for the dust to settle to see what he will do now. I told Bill Callahan in early 2023 I was going to play chess with him using real people - by which I mean you indie musicians. This was as he said I had to do what he wanted and go along with a cover story. And I said nope. It was around March as I made a Ydes of March joke referring to Ys. And I said I will be Cleopatra and he can be Caesar (not the main one the other one) and then we will fight. And now he just goes around lying to people saying I agreed to go along with a cover story, which I did not, and I never will do, I would rather just watch you all lie for the rest of you lives on the Internet. I bet he didn’t even tell you that we made you pawns and the bigger ones castles and bishops and horses. I bet he told you all I like indie musicians still and would love to meet famous people. Nope. We have been fighting using you guys as chess pieces. And I will never go along with a cover story. You must have really loved that 69 love songs guy. But when you broke up you acted civilised and didn’t start a conspiracy and ruin someone’s life. Bill Callahan just can’t control himself for some reason. Cindy Dall and Joanna Newsom were not even nice or smart or very good looking. Cindy Dall had no talents at all. Joanna Newsom’s only talent was playing the harp and nobody likes harp music. Some days I like to think about Hell and the Devil making Joanna Newsom play harp music so her hands bleed and sing in her screechy way 24/7 in hell and it’s piped everywhere like in a mall and all the evil people in hell wish they had been good so they didn’t have to listen to harp music and Joanna Newsom singing all the time. Bill Callahan kept referring to her in his records after he started dating Hanly Bsnks. He never got over her even though there is zero good things about her unless you like harp music. And she in turn barely ever sings about Andy Samberg and when she does it’s about his money. I made him a nickname Sandy Hamburger as nobody wants to eat a hamburger with sand in it. This refers to Joanna Newsom not really loving him.
18/ And Bill Callahan and some of them appear to be dragging this out deliberately and telling me to improve my looks and lose weight for all next wave of crappy illegal art about me that comes out, as they must think they can force me to go along with their cover story by that point. But I’m just going to tell everyone all the stuff they did to me, then if nobody helps me take legal action, make you all lie until you die, and watch it on the Internet. You are boring really, the main ones are more interesting as their faces start looking guilty or hard or sly etc and it all comes out in their lyrics like gross subconscious stinky sweat seeping out of them. It’s probably an acquired taste. It’s not pleasant. It used to be like glass cutting me, but I’ve got over that now as I took it and overpowered it with my analysis. Now it’s in my control. And I am like a cold hard man that doesn’t look away from anything. They turn out to be not pleased about this and do not like their writing about me to be analysed and criticised by me. This is one reason they want a cover story.
17/ Also all the main people know I don’t like the art about me and am going to say I don’t like it, it ruined my life, I didn’t agree to it, and there’s no contract I signed. There’s only one film clip I like by Mick Harvey where he’s the detective in totalitarian France which is anachronistic and I’m on all the posters. I am going to get damages for all the art about me like it’s Monopoly and then I will be a property developer and build housing for disabled people which is environmentally sustainable. I told the Drag City musicians that if I don’t hate them and they have no money they don’t have to pay me damages. But if I hate them I will bankrupt them. I haven’t made arrangements with all the others. Then with the main people I’m getting all their records about me withdrawn from sale and to be made free for anyone who wants to examine art crime music. This is as why should they make even more money off of ruining my life with their records? So if anyone told you I’m going along with a cover story where I say I like this art, it was a TOTAL LIE. I will also get apologies. And for the low income people I don’t hate who I don’t get damages off, I might get them to give a donation to charity. Some people seem to just be going around lying. No cover story. No pretending to like art that ruined my life.
16/ And he’s gone from being sexually assaulted as a teenage actor, which made him quit acting, to using S&M and sex to get jobs in the entertainment industry I’m pretty sure, and also to give less famous people a career boost like Angel Olsen. Actually I would say the wake was probably the wake of after he quit acting due to the sexual assault. He doesn’t want any of this to be public which would have been fine if he didn’t sing about me and ruin my life for the last 20 years. There now I told you all the gossip I think. The only reason this even happened, with them luring me in again, is David Berman killed himself because of this. Then either Drag City or Bill Callahan decided to get me lured in again. Oh well I guess this year isn’t too bad as at least Trump hasn’t started a nuclear war yet.
15/ Also when the Sadist did S&M with Joanna Newsom he made her and the jerk do child sexual abuse S&M which is what that song The Seedling is about. I feel like S&M is not normally so focused on childhood sexual abuse TBH. Also I think it’s weird the jerk agreed that he wouldn’t date me for 8 years and then kept doing bisexual S&M all the time, like I would really want to date someone that does bisexual S&M, plus he made it seem like he was promiscuous but straight in his music and interviews. I didn’t get the S&M references, which are there a bit, but there are basically no gay sex references at all apart from maybe 2 or 3 but early on, 1989, 1999, 2001. This time he lured me in in 2022 then pretended to be straight and in a monogamous marriage for over 2 years, and then started making out like he dabbled a tiny bit with S&M and sex with men, until it turns out he is a bisexual hardcore masochist in a polyamorous marriage. How many people do you think want to date a bisexual hardcore masochist with a polyamorous marriage? I don’t really know anyone. And he’s still ruined my life for 20 years and made me severely disabled and made nobody believe me when I say he sings about me. Plus he withholds information all the time. And he won’t dress better or shave off his moustache or do anything to look better. And demands I don’t take legal action and don’t get damages and rely on him giving me money as he deems fit and I have to move to Louisville in a country where I don’t know anyone and he’s ruined my life and I would rather not move to a foreign country and live with him and rely on him for money. There’s no point even telling him because he just keeps demanding I do what he wants. I hate hardcore S&M now it just destroys people. I would tell everyone to never do it.
14/ Last time I got lured into this in 2013-18 I phoned this person who was into hardcore S&M as they had a website and phone number. Then I asked them a bunch of questions about S&M. And while they had a positive experience they said they saw a Sadist making a masochist have a mental breakdown deliberately, because the masochist wasn’t being submissive enough. Apparently there was some issue where the masochist wanted this one particular sadist, and wasn’t as submissive as what that sadist wanted from a masochist. They also told me they had no way of getting out of S&M as they were sexual abused as a child and were too weird for regular life. Both the jerk and Chan Marshall were sexually abused, the jerk during his teenage actor days, and Chan Marshall I’m not sure how it happened but she referred to it when she was doing all the blackmail and death threats in February and March. The Sadist also chose me because my friend told them my sister was sexually abused as a child, which was not exactly accurate. So the Sadist chose two musicians who’d been sexually abused to do a cruel game on me, and chose me age 19 thinking my sister had been sexually abused, as the victim of the cruel game. That’s weird isn’t it? I think it’s weird. Plus targeting my friend to spy on me, my friend was 17. Then the Sadist himself did underage sex but I don’t know the age or number of victims or anything.
13/ Also I then had to make it clear to people I want to take my legal action MORE than I want to date the jerk. Apparently no matter what I kept telling them about how they only have two options a) I take my legal action how I want b) they all lie until they die - they kept harbouring the belief that I wanted to date the jerk more than anything else and so they would make me do what I kept saying like 500 times I would not do - go along with their cover story. Then I had to make it clear to the jerk that he could go to prison because I also do not love him so much that I wouldn’t send him to prison. I can’t believe these people. You say things to them , perfectly clearly, and they just believe what they want and ignore what I say. Apparently ruining my life made them brain dead. Now I am smarter than all the people who used to be smarter than me, like Stephen Malkmus and David Grubbs. I wouldn’t normally ever consider dating a bisexual man, let alone a masochist. Sometimes I think gay guys are cute but then you say “if only they weren’t gay” but these are usually celebrities like Ben Wishaw. He is really cute. I liked him a lot in The Hour, that was the first thing I saw him in and I didn’t know he was gay then. I saw him say it makes it harder for an actor to get good roles if they are openly gay. He’s very thin though so I think he wouldn’t get like Tom Cruise Or Brad Pitt roles anyway. Too thin. He was very good playing Keats. I haven’t watched the one where he’s a doctor as I don’t like medical shows much. He was on a record about me that P J Harvey made. The record made me think I was going to get murdered. That was scary. Its that one she did in half gibberish.
11/ Oh I forgot something. So things were going along promisingly but when it got to the date of the hearing (because the Sadist and the jerk lied to the police, and it got adjourned a lot but then 10th April was meant to be the proper hearing) nobody helped me. Susie Cave said she doesn’t people to know, she maybe is changing her mind. The jerk said he chooses his child over me and I don’t offer him anything he wants. And David Grubbs told Jim O Rourke not to help me while lying to Jim O Rourke about how this started as a cruel game. Then I was not pleased and retaliated by saying all the stuff I was not saying because it was impolite and because I was trying to be responsible and getting people to cooperate. But I decided I don’t have to care about being responsible with what I say if nobody is going to help me with my legal action. Which is what I want, not some stupid cover story about glitter. Ooh I love famous people so much I don’t mind they ruined my life. Apparently in the cover story I’m a fawning idiot with no self respect. I also looked up s&M related homicides, and apparently there’s a category of homicides where Sadists get masochists to commit crimes as part of their submission. So that’s basically like this except it’s ruining my life instead of a homicide. However it did make David Berman kill himself. Joanna Newsom sang about him not knowing these crucial details on Go Long and said David Berman would try to do something after the 8 years but would go over the ends of the Earth as he didn’t realise people from 1998 and her and the Louisville people would all try to keep ruining my life because of knowing about the cruel game. David Berman had a poem Self Portrait at 28 that used the term go long. Which means run far in football to catch the ball. Nobody told him about the cruel game, he makes a strategy, everything falls apart, his life is ruined with his marriage ending, no income, homeless, and people saying they will say he’s insane if he tells people about the blackmail in 2005. Dan Koretzky made a video blackmailing David Grubbs in 2015 so he would keep ruining my life, as Koretzky said it would ruin Grubbs’ academic career if people knew what he did. Now I told Gerard Cosloy about the cruel game, he says he hopes people don’t self harm or harm each other.
10/ The jerk and his evil wife do S&M and polyamory. The jerk would like to do S&M with me but if I won’t could I at least do Tantric sex. The jerk had sex with Sofia Coppola in 2007 as she’s into polyamory, which Lance Bangs found funny when I told him, probably as he’s friends with Spike Jonze. Sofia Coppola is involved in this and the evil wife got in her Zoetrope magazine because of this, where she referred to me, and the ooh Zoe loves famous people making art about her cover story, which I am vetoing. Then I told Kim Gordon. Then Sofia Coppola complained I am gossiping about her sex life. Apparently I am not meant to gossip about people’s sex lives even though they ruined my life. The jerk decided to not take away his lies to the police, there was a hearing which got partly heard then paused again, and the jerk said he decided he chooses his child not me, and I don’t offer him anything he wants. Then when not everyone was ruining my life he started saying he loved me again but I don’t believe him. Every time he always ruins my life. Also it turns out Susie Cave is involved in this. I’m not sure when she found out about it. Stanley Donwood says she’s fragile I think, or at least he said somebody or something is fragile. There’s a lot of gay men in fashion, I don’t think they would care much about a gay sex and S&M scandal. Fashion has a lot of openly LGBTQ people, indie music has hardly any openly LGBTQ people. So I think that’s all the updates.
9/ Okay so we get to mid 2005 and all the fighting. I already told you about this, so now I’m just adding the bit about the cruel game. In the fighting in 2005 some people knew about the cruel game and some didn’t. So a bunch of the Dirty Three - Nick Cave people knew about the cruel game. The Louisville Slint etc people close to the jerk either knew about the cruel game already or found out during the fighting. But they didn’t tell Paul Oldham for some reason. I think he’s sincere when he keeps denying knowing about it. And then we see David Grubbs is a horrible best friend and didn’t tell Jim O Rourke. Do you have a best friend? I need to find Jim O Rourke a new best friend as David Grubbs lies to him and also tells him not to help me with my legal action. Jim O Rourke likes synthesisers and Japanese plum wine. Do you like those things? Now Joanna Newsom and Bill Callahan told Dan Koretzky about the cruel game, so he wouldn’t ruin my life. Dan Koretzky doesn’t seem to have told Rian Murphy AFAICT. Also nobody told David Berman until Bill Callahan told him just before he killed himself. I don’t think anyone told Stephen Malkmus in 2005 when he made the deal with Bill Callahan to stop the fighting and agreed everyone would ruin my life for 8 years. I think Bill Callahan wanted Malkmus to agree so all the info wouldn’t come out in the fighting. See how they wished now to stop the fighting before I told everyone it started in a cruel game in 1998. It’s the same.
7/ The jerk told Joanna Newsom during the affair about the cruel game and told her now he would like to date me. Joanna Newsom said he should forget about me and date her. I think he said yes/no/yes/no for ages then the affair went sour. When Bill Callahan found out about the affair, she told him everything she had found out. Bill Callahan had known about it at the start, Knock Knock and Dongs of Sevotion both refer to it, then Rain On Lens is about how he can’t get close to it. At this point the Sadist and his harem of the jerk and Chan Marshall pushed Bill Callahan out of it. On A River Aint Too Much To Love he says he wants to erase me or the art about me as he doesn’t want it in his life. Then Joanna Newsom tells him what she found out and now suddenly he knows what was going on. He was also furious with the jerk then.
8/ Let’s focus on Bill Callahan for this comment. He hated the jerk for having an affair with Cindy Dall. Bill Callahan referred to the jerk on EVERY SINGLE RECORD since Doctor Came At Dawn, not just in lyrics but often in titles and cover art. Drag City did nothing about it. They either didn’t know or didn’t care. My friend said there was some beef between the jerk and Bill Callahan after briefly meeting them both in 1997-98 so the Drag City bosses must have known there was an issue there. Now I’m pretty sure Bill Callahan’s weird NSA spy parents taught him some cryptography. Then he started using it in songs. They were language analysts and language analysts do cryptography and decryption. Bill Callahan has a weird gap in his CV from after high school until he started music and couldn’t sin or play guitar or anything. Either he was a total slacker or he had another career path that didn’t pan out. I think he tried to get into intelligence but didn’t pass the psychological tests. Then he went into music on the rebound from his chosen career. I can elaborate more about his family but I can’t be bothered typing it. I think the cryptography started with Red Apple Falls. After I started getting good at reading these lyrics I could read the Shakespeare Sonnets much better, and Helen Vendler says they have cryptography in them. I must be naturally good at cryptography.
Hi Stephin Merrit, so now I have worked out that Sonic Youth were involved in the fighting in 2005 and on Joanna Newsom’s side and agreed to ruin my life. I worked this out because Kim Gordon is constantly a total bitch to me since 2015-16 ish. The latest is she kept telling me on her Instagram that I should do what she wants, which is some cover story to keep her and Sofia Coppola out of this. Any way then she tried going over my head and pressuring Jim O Rourke to make me do what she wants. Then Bill Nace got a lot of angry emails from me and I worked out Sonic Youth agreed to ruin my life in 2005. They could have been involved as Jim O Rourke was in the band then, or as Steve Shelley was close to Chan Marshall, or because they were all friends with Stephen Malkmus etc. Thurston Moore already told me why they agreed to ruin my life, I just didn’t realise he was talking about 2005. He said it was because you should believe women and Joanna Newsom was a woman. Then Jim O Rourke left Sonic Youth in late 2005. Then everyone knew they’d made me psychotic. Then Thurston Moore started cheating on Kim Gordon as ruining my life dampened the marriage. Then the marriage ended, the band ended. Kim Gordon blamed Thurston Moore and his partner in the media, and Thurston Moore couldn’t defend himself or his partner without exposing the secret about ruining my life. Then in 2015-16 she did Glitterbust complaining I wasn’t awestruck and didn’t say “wow you’re all famous I don’t mind you ruined my life”. And then I got lured into this again in 2022 and she keeps being a total bitch and trying to get special treatment for her and Sofia Coppola. So now I am on Billy Corgan and Courtney Love’s side of the debate about whether Kim Gordon is mean. Yes she’s really mean and she’s just like Harvey Weinstein but without the sleaze. She thinks she can ruin my life because she’s famous and powerful and tries to use her industry power to get other people to ruin my life or make me do what she wants. Also the bad thing is there’s another dead. Gregg Foreman. It looks like a suicide and he’s linked to Chan Marshall and was touring with her when she went mental in February and March and was blackmailing people and doing death threats and other stuff. He wasn’t on my radar so I hadn’t contacted him, and I’m not sure what he thought was going on. I don’t know how many other people there are who I haven’t realised were involved. He wouldn’t have been in the group I’m sending to prison and I don’t think he had enough money for me to bother getting damages from him. But I don’t know if he knew that. He looks like he was a nice person as there’s a lot of people on social media saying what a good friend he was etc. So it’s pretty shit at the moment all around.
21/ The jerk was forced to agree to lure me in again after David Berman killed himself. Either by Drag City or Bill Callahan, I’m not sure which. He didn’t want to and neither did his evil wife, and they postponed it. That’s why it didn’t happen that soon after David Berman killed himself. Then the jerk must have been told to lure me in and pretend to love me and give me selective bits of information, and try to force me to go along with their cover story. I guess he could have said no, but if anyone else helped me he could go to prison. I guess David Berman killing himself must have been a big deal to get people to force him to communicate with me. He is not nice to me half the time.
20/ Bill Callahan in 2005 blackmails people into being in a conspiracy to ruin my life, and now after 20 years of that, he wants me to join the conspiracy, so all the people like you in the conspiracy don’t have to feel bad anymore about ruining my life. But I’m like, nope, never going to happen. In October 2016 when the main ones decided to destroy my life forever, they didn’t care. But after David Berman killed himself they suddenly realised they have this problem with over 170 famous people being in a conspiracy and some of them feel bad about ruining my life. So they decide to try and get me to join the conspiracy so these people don’t have to feel guilty anymore. Gee nope. Then I spent the time getting all the info and telling you guys. The people not being pleased about ruining my life must be pretty bad for them as they have let me get all the info.
19/ And I forgot Hanly Banks also wants to ruin my life as she doesn’t like the idea of not having a lot of money when Bill Callahan is in prison and I get his records withdrawn from sale. So the jerks evil wife wants to ruin my life, Bill Callahan’s wife wants to ruin my life, and Nick Cave’s wife wants to ruin my life. Stephen Malkmus wife changed her mind about wanting to ruin my life and made him give up. Although now I have to wait for the dust to settle to see what he will do now. I told Bill Callahan in early 2023 I was going to play chess with him using real people - by which I mean you indie musicians. This was as he said I had to do what he wanted and go along with a cover story. And I said nope. It was around March as I made a Ydes of March joke referring to Ys. And I said I will be Cleopatra and he can be Caesar (not the main one the other one) and then we will fight. And now he just goes around lying to people saying I agreed to go along with a cover story, which I did not, and I never will do, I would rather just watch you all lie for the rest of you lives on the Internet. I bet he didn’t even tell you that we made you pawns and the bigger ones castles and bishops and horses. I bet he told you all I like indie musicians still and would love to meet famous people. Nope. We have been fighting using you guys as chess pieces. And I will never go along with a cover story. You must have really loved that 69 love songs guy. But when you broke up you acted civilised and didn’t start a conspiracy and ruin someone’s life. Bill Callahan just can’t control himself for some reason. Cindy Dall and Joanna Newsom were not even nice or smart or very good looking. Cindy Dall had no talents at all. Joanna Newsom’s only talent was playing the harp and nobody likes harp music. Some days I like to think about Hell and the Devil making Joanna Newsom play harp music so her hands bleed and sing in her screechy way 24/7 in hell and it’s piped everywhere like in a mall and all the evil people in hell wish they had been good so they didn’t have to listen to harp music and Joanna Newsom singing all the time. Bill Callahan kept referring to her in his records after he started dating Hanly Bsnks. He never got over her even though there is zero good things about her unless you like harp music. And she in turn barely ever sings about Andy Samberg and when she does it’s about his money. I made him a nickname Sandy Hamburger as nobody wants to eat a hamburger with sand in it. This refers to Joanna Newsom not really loving him.
18/ And Bill Callahan and some of them appear to be dragging this out deliberately and telling me to improve my looks and lose weight for all next wave of crappy illegal art about me that comes out, as they must think they can force me to go along with their cover story by that point. But I’m just going to tell everyone all the stuff they did to me, then if nobody helps me take legal action, make you all lie until you die, and watch it on the Internet. You are boring really, the main ones are more interesting as their faces start looking guilty or hard or sly etc and it all comes out in their lyrics like gross subconscious stinky sweat seeping out of them. It’s probably an acquired taste. It’s not pleasant. It used to be like glass cutting me, but I’ve got over that now as I took it and overpowered it with my analysis. Now it’s in my control. And I am like a cold hard man that doesn’t look away from anything. They turn out to be not pleased about this and do not like their writing about me to be analysed and criticised by me. This is one reason they want a cover story.
17/ Also all the main people know I don’t like the art about me and am going to say I don’t like it, it ruined my life, I didn’t agree to it, and there’s no contract I signed. There’s only one film clip I like by Mick Harvey where he’s the detective in totalitarian France which is anachronistic and I’m on all the posters. I am going to get damages for all the art about me like it’s Monopoly and then I will be a property developer and build housing for disabled people which is environmentally sustainable. I told the Drag City musicians that if I don’t hate them and they have no money they don’t have to pay me damages. But if I hate them I will bankrupt them. I haven’t made arrangements with all the others. Then with the main people I’m getting all their records about me withdrawn from sale and to be made free for anyone who wants to examine art crime music. This is as why should they make even more money off of ruining my life with their records? So if anyone told you I’m going along with a cover story where I say I like this art, it was a TOTAL LIE. I will also get apologies. And for the low income people I don’t hate who I don’t get damages off, I might get them to give a donation to charity. Some people seem to just be going around lying. No cover story. No pretending to like art that ruined my life.
16/ And he’s gone from being sexually assaulted as a teenage actor, which made him quit acting, to using S&M and sex to get jobs in the entertainment industry I’m pretty sure, and also to give less famous people a career boost like Angel Olsen. Actually I would say the wake was probably the wake of after he quit acting due to the sexual assault. He doesn’t want any of this to be public which would have been fine if he didn’t sing about me and ruin my life for the last 20 years. There now I told you all the gossip I think. The only reason this even happened, with them luring me in again, is David Berman killed himself because of this. Then either Drag City or Bill Callahan decided to get me lured in again. Oh well I guess this year isn’t too bad as at least Trump hasn’t started a nuclear war yet.
15/ Also when the Sadist did S&M with Joanna Newsom he made her and the jerk do child sexual abuse S&M which is what that song The Seedling is about. I feel like S&M is not normally so focused on childhood sexual abuse TBH. Also I think it’s weird the jerk agreed that he wouldn’t date me for 8 years and then kept doing bisexual S&M all the time, like I would really want to date someone that does bisexual S&M, plus he made it seem like he was promiscuous but straight in his music and interviews. I didn’t get the S&M references, which are there a bit, but there are basically no gay sex references at all apart from maybe 2 or 3 but early on, 1989, 1999, 2001. This time he lured me in in 2022 then pretended to be straight and in a monogamous marriage for over 2 years, and then started making out like he dabbled a tiny bit with S&M and sex with men, until it turns out he is a bisexual hardcore masochist in a polyamorous marriage. How many people do you think want to date a bisexual hardcore masochist with a polyamorous marriage? I don’t really know anyone. And he’s still ruined my life for 20 years and made me severely disabled and made nobody believe me when I say he sings about me. Plus he withholds information all the time. And he won’t dress better or shave off his moustache or do anything to look better. And demands I don’t take legal action and don’t get damages and rely on him giving me money as he deems fit and I have to move to Louisville in a country where I don’t know anyone and he’s ruined my life and I would rather not move to a foreign country and live with him and rely on him for money. There’s no point even telling him because he just keeps demanding I do what he wants. I hate hardcore S&M now it just destroys people. I would tell everyone to never do it.
14/ Last time I got lured into this in 2013-18 I phoned this person who was into hardcore S&M as they had a website and phone number. Then I asked them a bunch of questions about S&M. And while they had a positive experience they said they saw a Sadist making a masochist have a mental breakdown deliberately, because the masochist wasn’t being submissive enough. Apparently there was some issue where the masochist wanted this one particular sadist, and wasn’t as submissive as what that sadist wanted from a masochist. They also told me they had no way of getting out of S&M as they were sexual abused as a child and were too weird for regular life. Both the jerk and Chan Marshall were sexually abused, the jerk during his teenage actor days, and Chan Marshall I’m not sure how it happened but she referred to it when she was doing all the blackmail and death threats in February and March. The Sadist also chose me because my friend told them my sister was sexually abused as a child, which was not exactly accurate. So the Sadist chose two musicians who’d been sexually abused to do a cruel game on me, and chose me age 19 thinking my sister had been sexually abused, as the victim of the cruel game. That’s weird isn’t it? I think it’s weird. Plus targeting my friend to spy on me, my friend was 17. Then the Sadist himself did underage sex but I don’t know the age or number of victims or anything.
13/ Also I then had to make it clear to people I want to take my legal action MORE than I want to date the jerk. Apparently no matter what I kept telling them about how they only have two options a) I take my legal action how I want b) they all lie until they die - they kept harbouring the belief that I wanted to date the jerk more than anything else and so they would make me do what I kept saying like 500 times I would not do - go along with their cover story. Then I had to make it clear to the jerk that he could go to prison because I also do not love him so much that I wouldn’t send him to prison. I can’t believe these people. You say things to them , perfectly clearly, and they just believe what they want and ignore what I say. Apparently ruining my life made them brain dead. Now I am smarter than all the people who used to be smarter than me, like Stephen Malkmus and David Grubbs. I wouldn’t normally ever consider dating a bisexual man, let alone a masochist. Sometimes I think gay guys are cute but then you say “if only they weren’t gay” but these are usually celebrities like Ben Wishaw. He is really cute. I liked him a lot in The Hour, that was the first thing I saw him in and I didn’t know he was gay then. I saw him say it makes it harder for an actor to get good roles if they are openly gay. He’s very thin though so I think he wouldn’t get like Tom Cruise Or Brad Pitt roles anyway. Too thin. He was very good playing Keats. I haven’t watched the one where he’s a doctor as I don’t like medical shows much. He was on a record about me that P J Harvey made. The record made me think I was going to get murdered. That was scary. Its that one she did in half gibberish.
12/ Now I have found everything out and can tell all you ordinary indie musicians that got told a bunch of lies.
11/ Oh I forgot something. So things were going along promisingly but when it got to the date of the hearing (because the Sadist and the jerk lied to the police, and it got adjourned a lot but then 10th April was meant to be the proper hearing) nobody helped me. Susie Cave said she doesn’t people to know, she maybe is changing her mind. The jerk said he chooses his child over me and I don’t offer him anything he wants. And David Grubbs told Jim O Rourke not to help me while lying to Jim O Rourke about how this started as a cruel game. Then I was not pleased and retaliated by saying all the stuff I was not saying because it was impolite and because I was trying to be responsible and getting people to cooperate. But I decided I don’t have to care about being responsible with what I say if nobody is going to help me with my legal action. Which is what I want, not some stupid cover story about glitter. Ooh I love famous people so much I don’t mind they ruined my life. Apparently in the cover story I’m a fawning idiot with no self respect. I also looked up s&M related homicides, and apparently there’s a category of homicides where Sadists get masochists to commit crimes as part of their submission. So that’s basically like this except it’s ruining my life instead of a homicide. However it did make David Berman kill himself. Joanna Newsom sang about him not knowing these crucial details on Go Long and said David Berman would try to do something after the 8 years but would go over the ends of the Earth as he didn’t realise people from 1998 and her and the Louisville people would all try to keep ruining my life because of knowing about the cruel game. David Berman had a poem Self Portrait at 28 that used the term go long. Which means run far in football to catch the ball. Nobody told him about the cruel game, he makes a strategy, everything falls apart, his life is ruined with his marriage ending, no income, homeless, and people saying they will say he’s insane if he tells people about the blackmail in 2005. Dan Koretzky made a video blackmailing David Grubbs in 2015 so he would keep ruining my life, as Koretzky said it would ruin Grubbs’ academic career if people knew what he did. Now I told Gerard Cosloy about the cruel game, he says he hopes people don’t self harm or harm each other.
10/ The jerk and his evil wife do S&M and polyamory. The jerk would like to do S&M with me but if I won’t could I at least do Tantric sex. The jerk had sex with Sofia Coppola in 2007 as she’s into polyamory, which Lance Bangs found funny when I told him, probably as he’s friends with Spike Jonze. Sofia Coppola is involved in this and the evil wife got in her Zoetrope magazine because of this, where she referred to me, and the ooh Zoe loves famous people making art about her cover story, which I am vetoing. Then I told Kim Gordon. Then Sofia Coppola complained I am gossiping about her sex life. Apparently I am not meant to gossip about people’s sex lives even though they ruined my life. The jerk decided to not take away his lies to the police, there was a hearing which got partly heard then paused again, and the jerk said he decided he chooses his child not me, and I don’t offer him anything he wants. Then when not everyone was ruining my life he started saying he loved me again but I don’t believe him. Every time he always ruins my life. Also it turns out Susie Cave is involved in this. I’m not sure when she found out about it. Stanley Donwood says she’s fragile I think, or at least he said somebody or something is fragile. There’s a lot of gay men in fashion, I don’t think they would care much about a gay sex and S&M scandal. Fashion has a lot of openly LGBTQ people, indie music has hardly any openly LGBTQ people. So I think that’s all the updates.
9/ Okay so we get to mid 2005 and all the fighting. I already told you about this, so now I’m just adding the bit about the cruel game. In the fighting in 2005 some people knew about the cruel game and some didn’t. So a bunch of the Dirty Three - Nick Cave people knew about the cruel game. The Louisville Slint etc people close to the jerk either knew about the cruel game already or found out during the fighting. But they didn’t tell Paul Oldham for some reason. I think he’s sincere when he keeps denying knowing about it. And then we see David Grubbs is a horrible best friend and didn’t tell Jim O Rourke. Do you have a best friend? I need to find Jim O Rourke a new best friend as David Grubbs lies to him and also tells him not to help me with my legal action. Jim O Rourke likes synthesisers and Japanese plum wine. Do you like those things? Now Joanna Newsom and Bill Callahan told Dan Koretzky about the cruel game, so he wouldn’t ruin my life. Dan Koretzky doesn’t seem to have told Rian Murphy AFAICT. Also nobody told David Berman until Bill Callahan told him just before he killed himself. I don’t think anyone told Stephen Malkmus in 2005 when he made the deal with Bill Callahan to stop the fighting and agreed everyone would ruin my life for 8 years. I think Bill Callahan wanted Malkmus to agree so all the info wouldn’t come out in the fighting. See how they wished now to stop the fighting before I told everyone it started in a cruel game in 1998. It’s the same.
7/ The jerk told Joanna Newsom during the affair about the cruel game and told her now he would like to date me. Joanna Newsom said he should forget about me and date her. I think he said yes/no/yes/no for ages then the affair went sour. When Bill Callahan found out about the affair, she told him everything she had found out. Bill Callahan had known about it at the start, Knock Knock and Dongs of Sevotion both refer to it, then Rain On Lens is about how he can’t get close to it. At this point the Sadist and his harem of the jerk and Chan Marshall pushed Bill Callahan out of it. On A River Aint Too Much To Love he says he wants to erase me or the art about me as he doesn’t want it in his life. Then Joanna Newsom tells him what she found out and now suddenly he knows what was going on. He was also furious with the jerk then.